If only someone try hard to know me better. I'm not that strong like I show to everyone.
It's about time I'll collapse.
Blank
In My Mind
But I do know what it is like to lose somebody who had absolutely no business dying. And to not have a chance to say goodbye. And be disgusting with people for just walking down the street like the world is the same place. That if you've just done something different he still might be here. So you can keep on struggling and get both yourself killed. And that will be your fault. Or you can let go and let your self lives.
(Jules Callaghan - Flashpoint Season 2 Episode 15)
I Need a Pause
Setelah kepergian papa, semua orang (kecuali keluarga inti) seakan berhenti bicara tentang beliau. Mereka takut akan membuka luka kami, takut salah bicara dan membuat kami tambah sedih.
Padahal saya ingin mereka tetap bicara tentang papa. Tentang bagaimana dia berinteraksi dengan yang lain, tentang kesukaannya, tentang pendapatnya, tentang hal yang menyebalkan tentang dia, tentang apa saja. Kadang-kadang saya berpikir semua orang akan melupakan dia. Semua akan baik-baik saja seakan dia gak pernah ada. I know everything is gonna be alright. But sometimes I need to talk about him, maybe I'll cry, maybe I'll laugh, that doesn't matter. Because when everyone stop talking about him I'm affraid I'll forget everything about him. Terbangun di malam karena sadar saya hampir lupa bagaimana suaranya itu menyedihkan. Spending the rest of the night crying is nothing as long as I can remember everything about him.
Tapi saya sadar, bagi orang lain hidup mereka terus berjalan. Hidup kami pun akan dan harus terus berjalan. But sometimes I need a pause to remember him.
Ahhh life...
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Its been 7 months. Not even a single day passed without thinking about you Dad. We'll be strong here, don't worry. :)
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Apapun yang dikatakan orang, menyia-nyiakan waktu dsb tapi menemani papa dari sakit, meninggal sampai mengurus segala surat-suratnya adalah satu hal yang TIDAK AKAN PERNAH saya sesali. Saya tidak perlu penghargaan orang, rasa kasihan orang dll.
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Donghae Thanks To
Super Junior Lee Donghae's "Thanks to"Dear father…It’s already our 6th album father^^It’s something I realize everyday, but time really does fly…I’m already 27 years old ^^I wonder how you’d be like if you were still alive?? I imagine it everyday!~You would have a lot of white hair growing out, more wrinkles on your face, and I think you would’ve gained more weight ^^hehe I wonder if I’m becoming more like you as I grow? When I was still little, everyone used to say that we looked very alike when we walk around holding
hands… heheI’ve changed this much and I wonder how much you’ve changed, I miss you, and I want to hug you ^^Sometimes I miss you so much that I think about you and wish that you would appear in my dreams tonight! You’re not sick but healthy right??
(I’m) Going around from one place to another in this world and working hard, so don’t worry !!Even in the future,I will be a son who will work harder and not feel down/ exhausted but go further. Thank you for being by my side, holding my hand and
keeping me in your arms!!^^As usual, what I say today while looking at a picture of you… ” I love you father!!”
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Dear Dad
Last night I dream about you Dad.
We are all in the airport, taking you to Balikpapan. You look healthy, happy, exactly what I remember about you before that cancer happen. And then I realize it's 26 June, means that it's already 5 months since you gone to heaven.
I will think that it is your way to tell me (us) that you're happy in heaven. And tell us to stop crying and missing you that much.
Dear daddy, happy 5 months in heaven. I promise we all will meet again. In God's time.
With love ,
Your forever little girl. ♥
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Happiness is Simple
Melihat baju yang tiba-tiba ada jahitan kecil itu rasanya sejuk. Karena saya bahkan tidak tahu itu bolong tapi pembantu saya melihat dan tanpa diminta langsung dia perbaiki. Ahhh. The beauty of having the same maid for 25 years (even longer than my age).
Thank you De. :)
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Turut Berduka Cita
Kami yakin bahwa hidupnya hanyalah diubah, bukannya dilenyapkan ; dan bahwa suatu kediaman abadi kini tersedia baginya di surga. Didasari oleh keyakinan ini, semoga dalam menghadapi maut yang tak terelakkan kami tidak lagi merasa takut, karena sungguh-sungguh didukung oleh harapan akan hidup abadi yang Kau janjikan kepada kami.